Fear:
So the month is
nearly over and I'm feeling quite proud that I've managed to write so
much. I hope I have managed to do what I set out to do, to raise some
awareness of BPD and its complexities. It is a very complicated
illness, difficult to understand with so many components, but I hope
I managed to explain it ok. I don't know what else to say but I will
have to think because there are 4 more days to go!!
Meanwhile.... I have
my appointment with the psychotherapist tomorrow to talk about
my next therapy. I am really scared and feeling very anxious. When
I'm really stressed and talking to someone, I can't even form a
coherent sentence. I can't pluck a single word from my head. My brain
is full of nothing! In fact, no, it feels like my head is full of so
much but it is all jumbled up and whirling about. I just can't find
the words I need among the jumble so nothing at all comes out. I will
no doubt panic and cry but I will let you know how it goes.....
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